So for the past few days I have been reading "You Are A Badass" by Jen Sincero and to say that it has been a life changing experience would be an understatement. I have never really been big on self help books because I felt like most of them were just gimmicks but this book has truly helped me change my entire thought process and I am barely even half way through. Jen talks about changing your thinking and the type of energy you put out into the universe. Also getting down to the root of your issues and what is really stopping you from living the life you desire. After having a world wind of a day on Tuesday that left me all in my feelings and reading a few chapters that night it really got me thinking about what is really stopping me from living the life I truly desire to live. Digging a little deeper outside of the occasional procrastination and excuses. What is REALLY stopping me? I wen't to sleep still with a heavy heart but before I could even fully wake up on Wednesday morning the quote "The level of happiness you desire isn't impossible to achieve". And it hit me like a ton of bricks. Thats it! That is what has been stopping me.
In my 25 years of life I have experienced a lot of disappointments in work, relationships and my life choices (as Im sure many of us have). But I can be extremely sensitive and hold on to things so I often allow these disappointments to affect me a lot harder than they actually should. I've noticed its to the point where I am afraid that if I become too happy that disappointment has to be right around the corner. I almost believed that it was impossible to actually genuinely be happy without being fearful. And this has affected me in me in relationships and now business opportunities.
I'll make excuses.
But the dumb thing is, is that my attempts to stop myself from being hurt are just hurting me anyway. So why not just take a chance? I'm still a work in progress (Lord knows I discover something new about myself every other week) but I believe the only way you can live the life you desire is if you first figure out what is truly stopping you. Its amazing what a few heart feelings and some reading can do to get your mind on the right track.
I also wanted to say thank you to all of you for coming to read this blog daily. I know sometimes I can be all up in in my feelings but it feels good to be able to get it all out. I appreciate you <3